I've begun planning JJ's 1st birthday party. I know, it's still 2 months away but I thought I'd get a head start so that I wouldn't be rushed into planning it all last minute (which is so typical and will probably end up that way, anyway). Anyway...looking at the invitations, cakes, and decorations made me realize that I have 2 months until my sweet baby boy will begin toddler-hood (is that a word???). I am in shock at how quickly time with JJ has gone. I could swear that we just brought him home from the hospital the other day and I know for a fact that he just started eating solids and crawling yesterday. Where has the time gone? I so wish it would slow down. I have tried so hard to cherish every moment but I feel as if it wasn't enough. I want a do-over. I want to do it again so that hopefully, this time, I will have every moment and every detail memorized. I don't want to forget a single thing. If time would stand still, just for a bit....
This morning JJ woke up right before Jorge left for work. I was still in bed so he brought JJ to me and I nursed him, hoping he'd go back to sleep (no such luck). I laid there and stared at my beautiful boy while he nursed. He is so perfect and such a gift from God. I knew, as I laid there, that these early mornings together would be one of the sweetest and most precious memories I would have with my baby.
It is inevitable that JJ will continue to grow and one day, he won't need me as he needs me now. Until then, I will treasure the moments we have right now knowing that it will all be over too soon.